Today is a National Holiday to me!!!

It's opening day!!!! Today should be a national holiday!!!!

GO CARDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Trying to make time...

I have been taking on so much lately, that it seems my relationship with my bed and pillow is suffering! We've had a few rough patches before..(certian lady I like to call Lil A)... But this time it's serious! I think we need counseling, before it files for divorce! We have only been able to spend a very few ( as in about 3-4) hours a night together... And I completely agree with the fact that is extremely to little!
I just want to tell my bed how sorry I am for my lack of attention, and will seriously putt forth a better effort to hang out more! I REALLY do miss you!!
<3

A realization for myself!

I have been dealing with some stuff personally lately.. It's not a secret, but what is kept private, is what I'm dealing with. I also appreciate the fact that people respect privacy (and will continue to!) and not ask me about it. If I wanted to talk about specifics with anyone, I will, or already would have.
Anyway... Here is my realization:

1. I have always been so worried about what people thought of me and what I did. I was always so worried about the whole, "OMG, if I'm not this certain way, I won't be liked or accepted!" well I have a answer for that..... "F" that!! I am who I am and will be who I am, if someone doesn't like me for that, then it is their loss, because I will still be fabulous without them!! :-)

2. Judgey People can suck it too! I am tired of people judging me and what I do. I'm not perfect, nor do I pretend to be, but neither are they! People need to stop trying to judge the kind of wife I am, or mom I am, or even just a woman in general. If I am happy with the way I conduct myself and with who I conduct it with, then everyone else should be too!

3. Life will go on, with or without me!
I am 25 years old, & I need to start acting like it! Maybe I was all uptight and stuff before because I was married as a toddler..(well 19, but still!) I had a baby at (barely) 24! I am not saying I'm gonna go out and be a crazy irresponsible fool.. I mean I still have to come home to be a Mama! But I mean stuff like, having girls night out, or playing sand v-ball and softball this summer. Running, because it makes me feel good, and hanging out with my friends, because they love me, and are the best!! And excuse the hell out of me if we happen to go to a bar to play darts or God forbid have a drink, (or 2!) , because last time I checked I was 25 and all of those "horrible" things are legal!!

4. I wish people had the balls to talk about me to my face! If someone has something to say about me, be man/woman enough to tell ME how u feel, not that it will probably matter to me, but if you feel the need to talk about me, don't try to hide it and talk behind my back! I have ears everywhere, and myTRUE friends don't think twice about telling me word for word what you really think about me!

5. If things are meant to be, they will be! I'm tired of basically feeling guilty for not forcing thongs to happen. You can't always plan you're whole future when you're so young. Mistakes will happen! Some big and some small, some even huge! But have no regrets, and live each day like it's your last, because it might be!!

<3 ~ S ~

Getting closer...

I'm soooo excited about Aubrey's new room!! I seriously can't wait to share pictures of it! We did the drywall primer tonight and will do the base white coat tomorrow. Then will do the boarders and stenciling Friday! Ceiling and carpet saturday, along with moving her in. She is tentatively set to sleep in her very own room for the first night ever Saturday night!!! Yahoo!!!

Aubrey moves out... Finally!! :-)

Like any other excited parents we were anxious to decorate and build a nursery when we found out I was pregnant..( note: with Aubrey 2 years ago...don't make me choke at the thought of being pregnant again!!)
We picked out all the perfect paints and bedding, lamps and furniture. We put every piece in it's place and waited for little Miss to make her arrival. Once she was born and came home, I was so excited to show her, her new room. It was perfect!! When we got ready to go to bed that night, I was nervous about not hearing her cry, even though we had a monitor and her room was next to ours... So we put a bassinet in our room, and that's where she slept. After a couple of night of this, on the 3rd or fourth night home, I noticed that while nursing her in bed I would doze off and forget to put her down in her bassinet. Don't worry the bassinet was up against the bed. She wasn't rolling off into the floor or anything...
I also noticed that we (she and I) slept better and for longer periods! Goal! That was perfect, so I continued to nurse her, then hold her or lay her next to me and sleep each night.. Until we went to the doctor for a check-up at 1 month.. He asked how her sleeping was and I said Great!! I said she was sleeping about 7 hours straight at night! He was floored! He said babies don't do that and asked if something was not right about her sleeping. I explained what happened and I thought he was going to pass out...here's kinda how that conversation went:
Doc: "she sleeps with u???" totally dumbfounded voice!
Me: "yeah, it's a great nights sleep for all!" excited about my new sleep discovery.
Doc: " I can't tell you what to do with ur baby, but I can tell u that I have seen too many parents roll on their babies, smashing them, or suffocating them accidentally in the sleep"
Me: tears are rolling by now...(stupid hormones!) " I'm so sorry, I'd never hurt her! I swear!!"
Doc: "just make sure u put her in her own bed at night, and you'll be fine", confident in her bursting of my new mom bubble...
We left that day scared out of our minds.. Hell, we thought we had done something amazing, worthy of writing a book or something... Apparently, wrong!
That night was HORRIBLE! She wanted to sleep and cuddle with me so bad... None of us slept!! This went on for a few days, and I finally broke down and brought her little lamb swing in the bedroom. She had taken several naps in it, and seemed worth a try. Score points for me! It worked great! She slept soundly all night! This continued until she was 11 months old!! After realizing that my small fry was getting too big for her swing, I decided to break her of it and put her back in the crib..(when I say back, I mean first time, since we had never used it and it had been set up all along..)
Sidenote: we had also moved at this time and she no longer had her own room.
The crib trying did not go over well.. She would scream and cry the second I laid her in there, no matter how sound asleep she was.
She napped in it just fine, until one glorious day, when I heard a thud during naptime, followed by crying...
I ran in the room to find her, hanging for dear life like a monkey from the side of her crib! How could she climb out?? There was nothing for her to stnd on, and the bed was ALL the way down! Somehow she managed! I rescued her and laid her in my bed.. Went right back to sleep!
I decided to take her crib and convert it to a toddler bed, I mean, if she could climb out it wasn't safe anymore. She slept like an angel in there for 3 nights! Glorious sleep for mommy!!
On the forth night I woke up to something laying on me...I kinda "moved it around" thinking it was the cat! Ha! I turned on the lamp to check on A... She was not in bed! My heart sank! I turned on the overhead light and jumped up! Then I saw the covers moving and the cat was on the floor.. I moved to find my Lil lady all cozy sleeping. She had climbed in bed with me. That's been the norm ever since! She goes to bed in her bed, and I wake up she's in mine!
Well, we recently decided she needs her own room, and so do we! I'm tired of breaking my ankle everytime I get up on the 1,000,000 toys in the floor. So let the remodel of the "storage room" across the hall begin! We are currently on the dryway stage, so pics to come!!! I can't wait to decorate her big girl room and for her to have her own place to sleep and play and have all of her own stuff!!! :-)